Everything was pretty
When we sat and stared
Remember when we were laughing
We were so unprepared
all this time
where did you go
oh I miss you so
Then we kept growing farther
and you were never there
wondered how we got here
and how I lost my best friend
all this time
where did you go
oh I miss you so
all this time
where did you go oh oh
oh I miss you so
I think I’m should
go away
before you get
the chance to say
you found a new
best friend
I like where it’s at when we bring it down
I like how it feels to feel once in a while
that first time when we dreamt up secrets
was strangely seductive and would only lead to others
I tried to cut it out, tried to stomp it out
but found that it was engraved in skin
and the seqential reminents had sunk too deep
So here we are. Forced to bring it down.
And I like how it feels to feel
Everyone had heard about the show
there were rumors of impressive lightshows and mystery theater
the seats were sold out and the audience was abuzz
eager hungry eyes looked up at impressive red velvet curtians
what a lovely exterior
There was chatter all throughout the room
I hear there will be fire eaters and exotic women
I spent my monht and a half on tickets
Then the lights went down and it was still
the silence was sharp and cut through everything
and the curtians fell back
their she stood
the loveliest girl in the whole world
she stood there, wearing the stares of all
she pulled a shard of glass from her coat pocket
disrobbed and screamed,
“There will be no light show, for there is no light left
the fire has been drained as well…I’m sorry if the fade is catching
but I’ve let it get me down.”
With that she put glass to flesh
and body to the ground…
such a show
Hands never shook taking what they wanted
this far in the game it wasn’t a second thought
and we dropped like acid and melted onto eachothers tongues
Transpired Inspired Enveloped Oh how it had Developed
How Clumsy we were when we layed down the law
What the hell are you here for
Took turns playing shows for bistanders
smile for the camera we said
when behind screen there were quick touches
hiddin bites, coverup scratches
animals behind bars was what we are
but none of it was real
just ghosts of ghosts and less then that
My mind wont keep it down
its constant chatter about what if’s and could be’s
screaming, “You are doing it all wrong, you are breaking it all”
Logic wont stop its tragic path
My heart wont turn off
comanding every part of my body to work against my simple resolution
keeping beat with all the songs I don’t want to hear
the pills wont slow you down
My hands wont steady
no concern for my continuing mantra of it will all work out and everythings ok
no pretend can cover up how fragile everything has become
so we put it to paper with unsteady hands
and noone can read so noone will know
hello place I want to be
why must you stand so close to me
its alright to be far away so I wont have the dissolusion you have made up your mind to stay
hello night sky
hows it been to watch me change with seasons
hows it been to watch me fall and hear me ask the questions youve seen answers to
hello pen
do you think my angsty scribbles are cute or repetitive
do you know the cure
What I’ve realized spaceboy
is even when everything is close and everything feels warm
it is empty and quickly fading
and when your sickness is quite catching
its an easy disease to love
the infection has spread throughout the patient
35 mm of penicilin
noone can tell how long she’ll last
gave in to the stillness of parilization again
despite the warnings shes in love with the plague
shes in love with the reaper and shes found a place to hide
in cornors of rooms where ghosts weep
in catacombs of false ideas so dark but tiny golden stones line the walls
she will fall away and noone will remember her before the disease
they will whisper of her pale hopes and her tainted lips
I hear she was some harlot anyways…best shes gone
Please go away quickly
drain like gunwound and give a quick halt
please dont fester and bury into a dying corpse
lets pretend it never was
and turn the good into dreams and the bad the same
some faded memory from a life before the one we have
and forget the names, forget the pictures, forget the smiles because they were never real and never lasting. Never stayed with the day after regrets or second guesses. Never stayed just like you.
It was best that we decided to unravel, because it was all inevitable
it would have been some tragic bathtub suicide or late night car crash any other way
either way we die and although we’re together…we never really were
It’s all cold now and we can feel the apprehension behind every act, behind very word
It’s not that childhood pretend it’s something ugly and something unsetting.
I don’t have the words so I’m choosing to dissapear.
You should do the same.
The same places seem so strange
spaces that used to be light and confortable are just unfamiliar walls
with etches that used to be promises, now just a fucked up reminder
of things that never work out
and even back home things just arent the same
everythings somehow found a way to change
it sort of sentimental how things go the way you suppose
in the middle noone ever knows
at somepoint there has to be goodbyes
whenever all that it’s based on is lies
and sure you might miss it
that thing that wasn’t really there
just pretend…but it’s just made of air
nothing to hold, but nothing to compare
Hello love
Hello lover
Hello girl
Hello dangerous stranger
wanna capture my heart and leve me for another
tell me I’m the only one to make you come undercover
Hello excitement
Hello inticement
Hello suicide mission
Hello I know better
want to play like I’m the only boy for me
and kiss me gently, that’s you, yeah
everything I can think you would be
Hello sex fiend
Hello secret
Hello shadow
Hello broken heart
I see you on your knees half woman half machine
trying to show how warm you can be
but when I’m in you, I feel your core
Hello bad news
Hello breakbeat
Hellow missnamed
Hello mindgame
And if I start to fall in love girl
I know I’ve let you…whats left to do but leave me
push away replace me again
but I cant fall out
the winters far to cold to stray
between misgivings it is fun to play
and though I know your lying
on back with other men
when you’re with him
you’re thinking of me…I mean I can pretend
Hello false hope
Hello bad dream
Hello great fuck
hello pretend…
let’s stay.
Shake down sundays led on to
break down mondays
the weeks just led it on
We threw our arms up
and threw our guns down
said god can’t you see we’re done
Pretty sally starlett
had the sharpest wit
a mouth full of poison
and a mind full of shit
when the boys came to draw her out
she filled herself with ammo
and let the bullets wet their drought
Broken bobby badboy
pretend that he was hurt
when his shoulder pocket
was lined with bills and coke
all he said was contriband
one agains the world
just so happened he lost his hold
Sad song tuesday came and left real quick
which led to fucking wedensday when when everything got strick
We fled the city
and screamed the air static
said god ca’t you see we’re dead
Bloody Blowjob Becky
Sang all the greatest songs about her loves
and those who’d done her wrong
she’d scream into the mic BANG BANG BANG
last we heard bout becky was the shot that held her name
…such a shame
Sleezy Sketchtown Steve
had the girls all in a panic
he swore he would never kiss on the lips
when he was thinking about you girl
his arms ran red and his his vains strayed green
denial of an addiction became an unhealthy occupation
bye boy
Angry thursdays screamed on by
and Fucked up Friday started to take it’s toll
We gave up to giving out
and then we heard the world scream
Baby Jane Baby Jane
I swear shed drive you straight insane
her face was sweet and her guts were pretty
you bet your life she was damn gritty
shed kiss you once and shake them hips
then stick that 25 between your lips
Mixed up Mister
assumed the world was doomed
painted on walls he found in empty rooms
you would see him at the parties
in the cornor of the room
playing with some trigger
till it all just shattered….
